We all have ruts here and there, some worse than others, some longer than others, some more severe than others. I'll be the first one to admit I slip into these from time to time. This school year has not been easy for me. I've had short-comings on multiple projects I was working on to start-up my own business. As much as I played it off like it was no big deal that failure took a toll on me and my mindset. I fell into developed some poor habits and before I knew it I felt like I had no control over my life anymore, and it lasted a while.
What changed my way of thinking wasn't an acute experience, but rather a culmination and reflection on how I had been living the past few months. My room was an absolute mess, the bathroom was moldy, air filter broke, no clean clothes, beer cans everywhere... Going through the motions everyday, not paying attention in class, saying what's the point? Even when I was training I almost hated myself and it seemed all my physical imperfections got to my head, which in turn lead to more aggressive and childish behavior on my part.
Even now I am looking back not in any single situation (although some were pretty bad) because it wasn't those single moments that were the problem. The problem was the ongoing negative habits I was living by that only set me further into a negative way of thinking. My view on life was so dismal and I was too caught up in my own fear of failure paired with a perfectionist attitude that I didn't even notice how obvious it was.
Let me tell you guys this. Develop good habits and never stop practicing them. It goes both ways, the more negative habits you have, the less likely you will pursue success and the more likely you'll have a me vs. the world life-sucks type mindset. The more positive however provides a certain uplifting synergy and your at one with the world, you don't carry hatred for others and you want people to chase their wildest dreams (along with yourself). As I write this I am getting this crazy high, focus, and motivation knowing what I've been through and being able to identify what's been the problem all along. I'm sitting here in a clean room, laundry done, food ready, and a certain inspiration that I haven't felt in a while.
I want you guys to take this home with you. Say it in front of the mirror if you have to (I'll sometimes talk to myself on a late-night walk home from the gym). I am capable of anything, with the right mindset and approach there is nothing I cannot accomplish. Through daily practice and a true love for life, I will practice good habits and look to develop new ones, and I realize that the more good habits I have and the more consistently I practice them the better and more fulfilling my life will be. The concept of time is amazing, its power can almost never be fully understood, but what can be understood is our time is not unlimited. With that being said, it is important to understand how precious time is, and how valuable it is to our life. I want to make the most of my time, and I want everyone who has a goal or a dream or a vision to make the most of theirs as well. I want to live life knowing I control who I am, who I want to be, and what I do with this time. I have control of what I do with the time I have, and it will be utilized to the fullest. I've lived long enough on the negative side of life, there is no reason for it. Hardships will happen, failure will definitely occur, there will be times where you are sad, lonely, and beaten to the ground-- Here's the ringer, maybe you gave it your all and you still lost, failed, fell-- whatever you want to call it. Guess what maybe you couldn't control the outcome of that specific event(s), but what you can ALWAYS control is how you get up and respond. That's something I never truly realized up until now, and damnit I'm motivated. I want to live a life of love, I want to love people, I want to understand them, I want everyone to get better and everyone to have passion and love their life, I want to world to get better, I want to inspire and motivate people to achieve what they never thought was possible, I want to spend more time with my family, tell them I love them and owe them the world for the love they have provided me, I will make the most of every single minute, knowing that that's something I can always control.
Stay motivated folks.
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